Putting the Awe back..

...in AWESOME!!

Damn I'm glad that is over...almost a full week of absolute emotional vomit. Eff that, my friends! Happiness is a choice and I like me happy. So, let's make deal, Monty and I'll take the bluebird of happiness behind door #1!

This is not to say that I'm not terrified of what lays (or is that lie) ahead...I know that I've been hit upside the head w/ the whole mortality shitstick, but the reality is that people die. While I have yet to really lose anyone terribly close to me, it's going to happen. The sooner I accept that, the better off I am all the way around. How I choose to deal with it is totally up to me. And no decision has to be made this very moment.

Clarity. Like I said a few days ago...it comes and it goes. Right now I'm having a mother effin' ephiphany. Hell, if I can get through 12 years of Catholic school, I sure as fuck can get through this.

So, bring it on...hit me with your best shot. The fact remains that the support system I have to rely on is solid. And when all else fails, I have me. And me is all that I need.

For my dad...